Blessed be blogging

 Is it my hormones or some chemical imbalance or something really wrong with me?? My life is full of blessing. I shouldn't dwell on petty stuff but here I am again BUT before I engage and actually do there is something I can do. I can switch my train of thought and think of happy thoughts. Yes, I am still blessed. I am still okay. I still have a job, money to spend and good health so why not! C'est La Vie! with that - is there really anything more to say?? nah! I'm all good actually :) but.. just to ease my mind and unload this not so great thoughts and replace them.. I need to do my regular ranting, it is good for me too. clears my mind. well, I don't really wanna share anything private but who cares.. also, I am catching myself right now. Watch the thoughts and let them go.  Money is something that I can still earn. Let go of my own ego. I have enough saved and my boyfriend is gonna be there with me. I will not be alone. The thing is - I've been alone for so long